Oh Sad Day

Well.... sigh.... In response to my last post, she said no. Luckily I am taking it pretty well. I mean it isn't the first time I have been rejected by women. And it will not be the last. I am a little bit confused though because she made it sound like she wanted to but, oh well... Back to my daily life of day in day out boredom. Nothing changes. I hate this. I want out. It feels like I am just a gear in a clock. A gear that isn't even necessary. If you took that gear out of the clock it would not make a difference. The clock would run just the same. I feel that I should be doing more with my life. It feels like no one cares about me. It really does. It wouldn't matter where I went or who I associated with. I need change.